i am

I am in a place of knowing what my boundaries and limitations are, without making excuses.*

I come from a place of gratitude for all that has passed this year. I've learned so much.

I see that I have options, (and always have).

I love our new home! I'm so freaking excited, even if I have yet to pack one box. 

I trust that my process in life is to experience the highs and lows.

I believe that I'm learning to accept the highs and lows as the ride that it is. And lately I like to think of my martial arts teacher in school, (we were required to take Tai Chi and Qi Gong as part of the curriculum), a sinewy, reed-like man who had an amazing flow of energy when he moved. I saw his ball of Qi in his hands; the continuing movement of Qi, (of everything), is beautiful and fucked up; high and low.

I find Los Angeles fascinating. The more I explore, the more enamored I become. 

I wonder if they think of me and I wish that I didn't care, (still), so much. 

I call in grace and fortitude.

I found out that I like myself because I really do believe in the Polly Anna unicorn, glitter farts, while simultaneously dropping F-bombs and cynically viewing the world.


*I am the girl who has one hand beckoning you forward and the other hand stopping your steps. I am a dichotomy and accept that this operating system, (how I choose to live my life), doesn't work for everybody.