Ok, so now what?
Not that I have any time table or schedule, because really, I've got the rest of my life. EEEP!
Here I am, no back-up plan, only a vague idea of how I see myself, now that I've made myself clear on what I don't want.
I was talking to a new friend, (who also happens to be an acupuncturist), last night, sharing my news with her and it began to make sense.
"wow...I've never heard that. I don't know one person who says they're an acupuncturist so they can be something else...acupuncture really was just a job wasn't it?"
It sounded so strange when someone else said it and I realized in that moment that I've made the right decision.
It was definitely a light bulb moment four years ago when I realized that I didn't have to chose, that I could be an acupuncturist and a photographer. When I left the design world, I had to close the door completely in order to embrace my new found career. I was burned out and didn't want to be in a creative field any longer, but I see now that it was more than that. On a certain level, I had to convince myself that I wasn't a designer anymore by walking away from everything, before I could fully embrace something else.
And this time is no different, except that even without a plan of action, I feel lighter, happier. I'm excited to see what unfolds and I'm channeling my fear into something more.
Or at least that's the plan for today.
