I realize now, how much time and energy I've devoted to my acupuncture career here in California, even though I never actually practiced.
On some level, I've held my breathe for the last eighteen months as I've tried to figure everything out. Logistically speaking, all of my best laid plans fell by the wayside because nothing panned out as planned.
Nothing.
A lot of what happened this year isn't ok in any way shape or form, but how my career has evolved into this, feels right. I'm sad because I spent a lot of time as an acupuncturist and it made me happy to be in practice. If we were still on the east coast, I would not have changed my career. It seems, (in that perfect rose colored way), like it would be a lot easier if I was inspired to continue, if I'd sit for the CA licensing exam and then set up practice.
And yet here I stand, validated.
Unsure and insecure. Convicted and filled with nervous anticipation.
