The battery on my laptop is starting to go. I wonder if it's a metaphor for something in my life, remembering that there doesn't have to be some bigger meaning to every circumstance.
Sometimes, a battery just dies, especially on a device that's nearly five years old. That's sad to me, that everything is built to be disposable and replaced. It's gross too, considering where all of this 'stuff' goes when it dies, and how quickly we will get to/are getting to this.
Have you watched this movie? It's fairly stupid, and it also seems that its dark humor is really a cautionary tale.
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Here we are mid-June, the solstice is this weekend and I'm still feeling like it's May. It could be our typical June Gloom, combined with my own June Gloom. I'm not depressed, but heavily mired in reverie. The month of June does that to me now, as I think about my sister, (her birthday and death), the anniversary of our move to L.A., and all of the other changes that occurred in what felt like rapid succession.
I keep telling myself to get over it. I have so much to be grateful for and trust me, I don't take any of my life for granted.
But the truth is, I am blessed and I am broken. Despite whatever the outward appearances, (aka social media), there is more to my story, and this is true for everyone.
I might seem strong, able to handle things, tough even. And I am all of those things. I feel things deeply and words cut to my core. You say difficult, I say vulnerable, and I know labels are never accurate and almost always a defense.
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