As much as I work on not being a fear-filled person, there are things that play on repeat when insomnia beckons. For me, it's not the falling asleep, but the staying asleep that is the issue, (a very clear distinction to be made for acupuncturists).
When I find myself awake in the wee hours of the night, this is the top ten list of what takes me down.
- The last week of my sister's life, and especially our last two days together
- Zombies, (i've been watching too much walking dead)
- Home invasions
- Money
- Not being employed, not contributing monetarily to our household, with no desire any longer to be employed
- Worrying that this lack of desire means that i'm in a permanent slump
- A permanent slump is my purgatory
- What will I do with my life?
- These stomach pains are surely a sign of something more serious
- Stop complaining
- Repeat no. 1 again and again, until I welcome no. 2
I'm sorry you're not sleeping well. I've dealt with insomnia a lot - both not staying asleep and not being able to go sleep - and it sucks. Hope it gets better soon.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I'm sorry for dumping so much yesterday. I know it was probably too much and I won't make it a habit. I was just in the moment of it all.
And sadly, Will is sick in bed again so I think we are going to have to postpone until December. Which I guess is fine.
Oh and p.s. I just noticed your new header...love it!
ReplyDeleteThat #11. It caused me to take a deep breath. I hear you.
ReplyDeleteI've been having horrible nightmares lately and am thinking it is time to call on some tools of protection...gosh that sounds woo woo, but I'm trusting that makes sense.