A photograph is always the most telling; my camera with its frank talk, unfiltered.
I would like to be able to look at a photograph of myself with very little clothing,(because in clothing I think I look quite nice), and not immediately jump to the five ways I look like crap, noticing little else.
I think the way to see myself better is to see myself as I am, without my protective clothing hiding what I see as flaws.
It's all relative. You might look at me and think, WTF? Because by all standards, I'm not overweight. And this is so much more than weight on a scale, or the size of my clothing.
My issue, which I didn't know was an issue until I found this quote yesterday, is that I've always thought of myself as a body with a soul and not the other way around.
I started the body project out of desperation, because I need to change how I feel about this house of my soul. I've decorated its exterior to my liking, now it's time to work on the bones.
I think the way to see myself better is to see myself as I am, without my protective clothing hiding what I see as flaws.
It's all relative. You might look at me and think, WTF? Because by all standards, I'm not overweight. And this is so much more than weight on a scale, or the size of my clothing.
My issue, which I didn't know was an issue until I found this quote yesterday, is that I've always thought of myself as a body with a soul and not the other way around.
I started the body project out of desperation, because I need to change how I feel about this house of my soul. I've decorated its exterior to my liking, now it's time to work on the bones.
i am nowhere near being able to do this. i haven't felt like i've owned my body since first becoming pregnant six years ago. i feel like a stranger in my body. yes, i know *in my head* that i have control over this but...it's the ever present 'but'...
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