a siren song

I had an eye-opening session with a coach recently; one that continues to resonate weeks later.

I was scrolling through my blog this morning and when I came upon this post, I thought to myself...

this just isn't true anymore.

I don't think my baggage, (or anyone's for that matter), is mine for the duration. That statement makes me really sad, that I had resigned myself to believing the shit I carry is mine to bear.

And I'm forever grateful and proud of myself that I took the initiative to change that story. I'm still working through the information gleaned in that call. Honestly friends, it sort of changed my life. It truly enlightened and set me free. It is the most in depth understanding of my life that I've had in a long time. 

+++++++++++

In that same conversation, it was suggested that I go down to the ocean every day for the next month as my meditation. 

It took me another two weeks to get there. Less than a mile away, I've been busy, but not that busy. I'd made the experience into a big deal; that it had to be this experience that was the way to mark the road towards all the changes I've made/am making. 

This morning I felt a strong call to go to the beach when I woke to the horizon blanketed in a thick, coastal fog. The fog horn sounding, the air damp and briny, I pulled my hair into a ponytail, threw on my sweats and went out the door before I found a reason not to.

The sand was cold, its chill pushing up through the soles of my sneakers, creeping into the lace holes and down the back of my sweats when I sat at the waters edge, breathing.

My body felt sore this morning from a hard ride last night, it seemed appropriate to take my morning stretch on the shore. 

I began by breathing in the air, matching my breath to the cadence of the waves, I stretched my tired muscles awake and reconnected to that place of a mind free of thought.* 

I felt reborn/recharged/invigorated and most of all, stress-free.

*I was immediately able to tap into that space of a magically free mind that is the core of Soulcycle. There's a lot of woo-woo in those classes and I totally buy into it. My brain goes to another place and I am eternally grateful to have found something that can do that in the space of 45 minutes.