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1. I went to Disneyland on Sunday by myself, no. 2 on my list.
2. I'd added it to my list because it scared the shit out of me, going to an amusement park alone.
3. I went alone Sunday night because we had a hotel reservation that I didn't want to lose, (48 hour cancelation policy.)
4. Miss A came home from science camp with a serious flu and was in bed the entire weekend.
5. She's now on the mend.
6. Feeling lonely, wondering if everyone would be looking at me in line wondering why is that lady alone...these are the feelings I had when I added the idea to my list.
7. Let me tell you, Disneyland was fracking crowded! 
8. Holiday weekend, no school the next day...duh.
9. I had a mini panic attack in line for the Haunted Mansion. 
10. I would have jumped ship but there wasn't any escape until we'd arrived at the entrance and by then it had passed.
11. It was the first time in ages since I'd been on the ride and it wasn't all decked for the holidays, (Nightmare Before Christmas style).
12. I'm proud of myself for pushing through the anxiety.
13. And it was pretty great to be alone, taking it all in, instead of worried about my kid/the kids I have with me.
14. I only rode one other ride in the two hours I was there. 
15. See no. 7
16. I rode the Matterhorn, a roller coaster, which was pretty exciting as the line was too long the last two times we've been in the park.
17. Fact: roller coasters aren't as much fun alone. 
18. I'm good with being in my own company, and I'm also good solo with public activities, (eating in restaurants, movies), but certain things, (amusement parks, live music in a small venue), intimidate me. 
19. I'm proud of myself for pushing through and doing it. 
20. And it's always nice to have a hotel room to myself for the night, especially when I'd been up the night before with my sickie.